Mommy Nightmares

I had my first two mommy nightmares last night.  Both were about being separated from Conor.  I think I'm a bit anxious about going back to work (again) tomorrow after having this past week to revel in being a full-time mom again!  In the first dream, I suddenly heard Conor's cries and realized I didn't know where he was.  After listening frantically, I realized he was outside.  I had left him in his carseat next to the car, apparently forgetting to bring him inside after a trip out.  In the meantime, rains of epic proportions had arrived and there was now a veritable sea surrounding our house, complete with waves.  As thunder boomed and lightning flashed, I swam out to him, watching his little face get engulfed by the rapidly rising water.  I grabbed the carseat and somehow managed to hold it just above the water and swim back toward the house.  In the second dream, I was touring some sort of compound, like a rich person's plantation, with many buildings all around.  I kept looking at the clock, knowing I needed to leave by 4:15 to get Conor from daycare.  At 4:15, I snuck out even though the tour wasn't finished.  Unfortunately, all of the buildings looked alike and all of the many parking lots looked alike.  Therefore, I couldn't find my car!  I frantically (yes, again, frantically) raced around the compound trying to find my car.  Finally, I found a help desk, and the woman gave me a gold bar to take to a lot, which she assured me would have my car.  I glanced up at the clock and realized it was 4:45.  I was going to be very late, and my anxiety rose.  I didn't have time to make sense of what she was telling me, so I asked what to do with the gold bar when I got to the lot.  She said once I found my car, to throw it in the grass.  I'm not sure whether I ever found my car.

My anxiety is rising just thinking back on the nightmares now!!  Hopefully returning to work (again) tomorrow will not be nearly as stressful as either of those scenarios!  And hopefully no more Mommy nightmares...